Friday, June 19, 2009

what a bad luck

every1 who borrow the ptptn, their money hv gone to their account...my money have not gone it yet....
if can, i won't ask parent help
how come i cannot get the loan the money..
actually i wanna pay 2day...because i'm afraid it's too late to pay
it cause me hv a fined when it overdue...UTAr
(univerisiti tak ada ruang
univeriti tak akan rugi

not only that, my bicycle puncture...when i went bck to home..i wanna ask for help by calling bicycle shop to help me fix my puncture tyre...
but i couldn't call to uncle because my hp: it's totally out of service..when i call the uncle
suddenly my hp screen could not seen by words..

it was really bad luck for 2day
luckily i saw alex liew from t14
thank god who help me get the help from others....i was that kind of troublesome to him
he help me get help by getting bicycle shop hp no
i tell him that student who live out of stATE always ''ask for help ''..i don't really want to do so...
he say we are not asking for help.... he say we are finding way to help, nt asking for help
it come across my mind...why i don't think so? i always think that i was troublesome to others friends and my parents...
when we live own house ,mostly we depend on parent
when we live outside of house, we depend on friend
it really help us a lot when we know a lot of friend...maybe we can ask for help
i realise how significant is it....
my ptptn have been settled by sending email to staff..luckily my neighbour know one of the ptptn staff..i just send my email to highlight the problem that i face...
hope my highlight problem and detail to solve my problem
2day, i have just registered the helper of Student representative election...
so many signficant thing and matter happen on this history day
i wanna find and buy some hp for myself...coz i borrow my housemate hp
we borrow people thing, we could not borrow too long period
perhaps, she want to use it....i know she use 2 cellphone for different numbers...
hope to have nice days in weekends

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

love

it's normal occurrence to see the couples because it's a trend and age for my present moment...
everyone seem can love in fall with everyone as long as they get consent to like each other...
i don't know why people think that why until now, i don't get boy friend .... i really don't care and i ask that is the important question for you????
people don't believe that....haiz...don't ask the question??? it does not matter....

My lifestyle and principal is different at u all...i try to think to b not different as a normal girl think to...i don't really want to be something special.. but i can't
to them, love is happiness ....as long as get along people like and both side are willing love each other ..through the understanding and all sort of life tested by god n then becoming couple
i see people who had girlfriend and boyfriend...they limit themselves into their own world.....don't care people matter...it's true to be self-fish for love matter
if not...they can't continue relationship
they don't widen their knowledge and relationship anymore....because they are happy their own world ....
have you seen this movie called by ''love metal''......god gives us this, we cannot control...
this is guy talk to them... haha...you'll laugh .that's why god gives us to date with the girl
you will probably say that you will feel lonely if you are not in couple
who say .there are so many thing and world...ask you to do something...they don't see it with their own eyes...they are so many independent woman who are success in the world ...if it does hv couple, most of them ad divorce... i see a lot this situation
my opinion and the way i think is different ......i want do a job or anything as a man can...because what they think, it's one causes of carrier woman who divorce early

for me....i treat it as a challenge game and may face it for ur confusion of yourlife
i can't be loyal to anyone...because i think that i have so many choices
if normal people....it's 一个打一船 for normal people
if people like who have not confirm yet一个打两船.....i didn't want too..cause my way of life is like this...
my relationship is always fiasco...how to end up with my problem???
i tell u i nid people psychology my problem .........

Monday, June 15, 2009

my lec and tutor

my age is not old enough..i don't expect that i will go university...time goes so fast..once it go...it could not return
it's indeed too old that i think...if according to my last time when i was kid, i won't think go university due to my lazy and my terrible attitude to study and that attitude that weaken the spirit to go on to with my academic excellent until one day ...i found the importance and get inspiration by my ex teacher...
my life is seasoned by experience....i don't want repeat my mistake
my determination and will help me to lead on the future journey that achieve the vision of my life..
i want get out the pressure and people who has underestimate me last time...
people who betray me since for last time..i assume i don't recognize them at all....they are forever teaching me the materialistic of life
meanwhile ,i accept the real reality that was cruel to my life....
i was so disappointed and depressed who did this to me...the person that i trust the most who lost faith in me.
it make me decrease the confident to other person who made friends, as well as closest relatives to me

i appreciate the people who are close to me...b a ''good listener and friend to me...lend me a shoulder to cry on..i have friend just to get know each other...but she had passed away around 5 years ago...life is indeed short
i had to appreciate people life and evry second of my life
sometimes it made me stupid whether to hate or love it...it maybe not resolvable question to my mind..it come across my mind sometime...
continuing the degree is out of expect able question , i don't realize that i enter the degree.
wow....i did that...bt then i don't know that i can continue the study or not
i lost faith in world..it is difficult to say sometime...
all destiny of my life is written ..student and the kid who survive in 20 decades....in that decades, it full with challenge because there are some competitor vying each other
not only excel academic....we need to be good everything
limitation is god does not give us to be good everything...
no perfect thing in the world
so far
my lecturer and tutor is oklo if comparing to other university... if get bad lecturer and tutor, u need to carry yourself well...no one can teach and guide you...
this is a normal thing which happen from time to time, regardless in which academic institution or even at organization e.g bad and good management problem
nothing is perfect the world...god is always no fair to human ...i used to b in that circumstances

if god were fair....every1 is homogeneous ...some people is equally smart n no stupid people exist the world
if like this, no problem is existing...
life is like business risk..some are up and down...
unstable and consistent..we need to prepare ourself for all the time...some malay proverb says
prepare umbrella before u go out

Saturday, June 13, 2009

experience in cs camp

before coming to a new semester , i was in the CS camp..CS is derivative and short abbreviation word for community service .i was happy to be in the camp and know and learn more thing in the camphappy because to know more people from all walk of life..it was kind of adventure to me to staying the camp and the place call'' broga''it is suburb and urban area youcan.
it is the border between the negeri sembilan and selangor...
no one expect that the well-know and foreign university which is called University Of Nottingham is existed in that suburb's and urban area .the villager is friendly, hospitality ...the presence of UTAR student from CS member give a such a big and great overwhelming response to villagerthey welcome us..according to what CS committee, their 1st time coming to brogra place...their village is willing to collaborate with UTAR student to the assistance of CS camp...Their corporation contribute a great job to the success and achievement of the camp they assisted us when task given to every group to the camp...our group is separated and recognized by the ''rainbow colour''...each group was required to invent the new slogan based on the colour of group..

I'm so sorrow and sad because i know that i don't contribute any idea to the group ..it give some difficulty to me to understand the CS member who has used the Chinese language as a medium instruction and that time...i was not feeling so well..and having bad sore throat until i don hv energy to talk anymore
i could not help my group member and what i could i do..i just play the role to participate in this game..
By the way, i see the comment and remark from paper written by the CS member ....
to starhaur...actually, i'm not good contributer for winning the game because i don't contribute any idea..
to the girl who told me i was cool....actually,i was not cool actually because i had sore throat that time
i had a good time to spend with my group member and stay with my group member ...i had a bad sore throat that time ...it does not help me talk a lot. if i were feeling well that time.. i'll try to socialise with others even though my chinese is so poor
to yonghau...i'm not quiet girl because some obstacle that make me don't talk a lot because i had bad sore throat..
understanding and communicating chinese language has added some hinder to me
to others...i know u all within a short time only...nth much can be remark and all i can say is if given an oppurtunity...i want and see u all future..
To My ultimete words to CS member
Keep It up.... A good work and group's work is not vain at all

this new semester worried me

haiz...a new sem begin for me...
it was kind of cAtastrope for me
it could inflict a great stress, worries ,pressure and financial devastations on student who has lost faith in their academic student..
many thing i heard for myself when i hear and see my senior fail that subject..
i was wondering that might it happen to me when i move foward to 2nd semester...
yet every semester could be brewing a perfect storm to student, perhaps the bad strom to other student too..
student's achievement in academic is casting off the paranoia of the new coming semester for us
new semester is a kind of torture . in a mean time, it bring some new challenge for me ...
every semester prompt the courage and brave among student who survive n struggle battle in the next and coming semester